Re: Why do I keep doing it to myself?
F-Bomb, my girl, I feel for you....
I myself am that way, and I know exactly how you feel. I have found that when people blame others for their issues....and many do....its because they don't have the inner strength to face the reality and fix it. They don't have the strength to admit they aren't perfect.
But you know what this means?
It means that you do have that strength and more. It means that you can keep moving forward and always trying to be the best you can be. And part of that means giving people chances. It means being compassionate, kind, caring, understanding and sympathetic. Because to be the best you can be it means being all those things and so much more. It means you are strong, fierce, protective and an fighter.
Even though it will hurt and hurt and hurt....keep doing what you are doing. As the boys said, you are one of the good ones.
Try, if you can, when they hurt you, remind yourself....they are children they don't know any better. That is what has helped me be able to move on and not be depressed for a week.
You can do it.
Love you girl.